Loud Humility
I've been praying for humility for years. My entire life I've often been the one who's a little too loud, and had "chatty" written on my report card more times than my parents cared to count. Forever I blamed it on my astrological sign (Leo- spotlight hog), and later on shifted it to the enneagram (a seven, it’s great!!!), but succumbed to the fact that this was just part of who I am. To combat the loudness, I pray for humility.
But recently I read something about how being humble doesn't mean being quiet. I literally read that sentence over and over. The relief I felt in knowing I didn't have to shrink down and be someone I wasn't in order to be humble was mind-blowing. This author talked about the true aspect of humility is caring for others. Really listening when others talk, and lifting others up when they need it. AND I CAN DO ALL THAT AT ANY VOLUME!!
When I started getting my writing published I floundered with humility the most. It's hard to put yourself out there and want your words shared without seeming egotistical and self-promoting. In addition to self-deprecating honesty I often find gratitude the most humbling of all.
The Twin Cities is overwhelmed with anger, hate, and fear right now. So I am pulling on the many blessings that humble me right now...
I’m humbled by my coworkers.
A fellow teacher whose mom is in fragile hospice, yet he sends lines of positivity to every student and makes division videos from his dog, the coworker who endears the students wearing heavy metal wigs and the one who lets her patient nature shine through her writing videos.
Another teacher who meets with certain kids daily who are struggling and adapts lessons because they can't handle the emotional side of all this.
I’m humbled by discussing race with my almost-middle-schooler, her freckled hands twist dandelions into a crown as she asks if we can pray.
I’m humbled by my four year old walking soundlessly on gravel as a deer stretches it’s long neck to leaves above the cabin driveway.
The stillness of the lake as we navigate this time and our place within it.
And I vow to be humble, but I will not be quiet.
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| YouTube + thinning shears = one happy detangled girl |
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| Movie night at the cabin! |
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| Who knew how fun mulch could be |
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| Family wrastlin' |
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| A strange new species |
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| After a tough day and lots of fighting, I find them both here. |
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| Bike rides! |
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| Birthday yard hangouts for friends |
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| So proud of this girl's science poster- all her! |
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| Playing arctic animals with ice! |
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| Five morels in the yard!! |
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| Secret family recipes |
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| A framer with the cabin in the background |
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| Excellent boat drivers! |
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| Love this |
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